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Assalamualaikum (;
Lol it's been a while since the last post rite ? Hahaaa well again for the 5th time or more I have forgot my password. Jyeah , I'm rock and i know that XD Well actually I planned to create a new blog bcause er I just want to get a fresh start i guess. Idk, but then I've faced some problems during the registration hahaa lol with some google age limit ==' so I decided just to stay using this blog but I'll renovate it haha skema words ~ But , I dont know when cause i'm technically a busy-girl right now. Haha It's normal for me to get busy bfore holidays. Final exam. PFTT bored -.- k dont have much time. time is ticking . and i really do have to go to bed. Bfore that , HAPPY RAYA HAJI to uolls (;

MY FUTURE MY DREAM

Heyya (; this time I would like to chit-chat about my future my dream my hope my wish and so on~ heheee ;D Okay these days I've been thinking about what I'm gonna be and what course would I take in two years from now. My first choice is to be a psychologist , children psychologist. I just love-love-love children (Y) They're just shooo cute and innocent. *Ha nak cerita sikit, td masa tgah syiok men bowling ada sorg boy ni around 3-4 years and dia like menyibuk kat lane kteorang tp siyus siyus comel patu dia jakun dgn tmpt keluar bola tu haha I was like starring je kat dia and senyum-senyum hihi patu ttbe dia syiok pulak bercerita kat aku tentang keajaiban tempat bola bowling tu XD* See ? cutee gila kannn ? Dia tak kenal aku but boleh cerita-tunjuk2-share kejakunan dia dgn akuu ^^ awwww melt hati I tau XD But then bila masuk MRSM ttbe rasa mcm nak bukak nurseri or tadika like that ~ *ni sbb masa tu tolong cgu jaga kaunter for pendaftaran second intake, then ada sorang boy juga around 3-4 years jugaaaa bising sangat2 but dia putih melepak kay[besar nnt mest hensem<3] dalam pss yg bergema tu dgn suara nyaring lagi haduyy kecoh dunia, but semua org suka that boy smpai men kejar2 lg dgn dia. Dia lari dr semua orang sbb dia tak suka even dr kakak dia sendiri pun dia lari. Dia nak mak dia je tapi dia tak jumpa soo dia lari mcm org gila laaa smbil jerit2 and yg lain semua kejar diaa nk tenangkan dia. But bila org dekat je dgn dia dia akan jerit mcm org nak rape dia saja == so semua tak berani dekat, pujuk dr jauh saja ~ suddenly ada sekali dia tgah lari dia jatuh. Kebetulan I was at the scene kan, so mcm slow2 g kat dia patu ajak dia bangun. Semua like starring at me and bersedia nk dengar dia jerit but dia tak jerit wohoooo happy nya, dia ckp ; nak mama ): , me ; Jom akak bawak pergi kat mama , that boy; nak mama nak mama , *resist tuk bangun -.-* me ; Akak ada gula2, amik la satu (; k jom akak bawak g jumpa mama ^^ that boy; ttbe bangun O: Omooo , happy nya aku masaaaa tu siyus bahagia hidupppp XD Then aku pass kat kakak dia* Hahaa thats why my pocket always full with various of candy kayyy (; Bila I bump je budak omey omey trus offer candy kat dorang and bila dorang senyum tu yg sumpa terbaik la wehhh . Heart them shoooo muchh <3<3 Sbb tu nak sangat sangat buka nurseri ;} Boleh rapat dgn ramai kids, play play dgn dorg, jaga dorg leklok and paling best skali when you get to be someone special in their heart ;3 *teringin doh jadi someone yg bermakna and sentiasa diingati oleh mereka meraka yg comellotte ni *kids* >< But sometimes I do feel awkward to get close to them . It's because, well children tend to like people who you know with a warm-pretty face ._. And I'm afraid that I'll scared them with my 'not-so-nice' look *yeahmanIknowI'mugly T.T That's why sometimes I just stare at them silently and just buried my passion towards them /: huhhh *sigh* But still, I heart them soo much <3 *again hahaaa . Ha I'm so curious and feel weird to those who does-not-like-kids-that-much and think that they're such a burden o.O I mean whoa man, how could you feel like that ?Yes kids, sometimes get noisy and annoying but hey you were a kid once too. I bet your momma will be suprise to have big grown up baby ==' Plus plus kalau yang hate kids tu women, lagi oh goshhh kay *hatibatu punya manusia* Kalau men er boleh tolerate lagi kan kan ~ 

Lastly, kids are just amazing. And I feel amazing too when I'm with them (':

HEY SOUL SISTO

Heyya, this entry is  about a young-miserable-girl misses her big-fat sisto. puff, as you know my biggo sisto are currently studying at Matrikulasi Arau, Perlis. And she 'up-up-away' *HAHA teringat cerita UP* to Perlis since the school holiday started [ayat aku pewlik di situ XD] . I'm kinda miss her *embarrassing statement ._.* yewlaahhh sometimes she can be the most kelinggo person I've ever know and kinda make my day fun. This holiday, hermmm I thought I can spent it with her. I want to spend my holiday with her. I've already make 'List-of-Things-That-I-Wanna-Do-With-My-Keliinggo-Akax-This-Holiday'. And and and and huuuh *sigh* .__. suddenly I get to know the she will leaving us soon. Leaving me soon. And puff my-yay-yay-holiday-mood disappear. Jirah pun was like ; Izzaty, don't you feel excited at all ? . me ; herrmm I got the feeling that this will be the-most-boring-terrible-pathetic-holiday of my life. I've got noooo mood at all. My roommates was happy-happy-nak-pergi-sana-nak-pergi-sini. And I ; aku nak duduk rumah je cuti ni ~ that time, aku ada mood nak g mcd je HAHA. Actually , I don't want to trouble my mom sangat nak kene hantar ke sana sini. If ada my sis, boleh naik tren or yang seangkatan dengannya. My sis would find a way to go to a place without troubling my mom. Like today, I went to mines and at first I was scared to ask her a favor but Alhamdulillah my results was okay so she willing to sent me there. Plus I'm the kind of person who loves to just-go-with-the-flow, like spontan saje. Everything about the hang-out ; like where to-when it is-what time-what we're gonna do, everything, I would leave it to my sisto. And sometimes spontan kay like ;

#SituationOne -- biggo-sisto ; Hoy alang, esok nak ikut ? . Me ; nak, esok kejut.

 And sometimes it turned to like this -- biggo-sisto ; Alang, bangunlah pergi siap. Me ; Alahh ngantuk lah, awak pergi lah soranggg ~

#SituationTwo -- *Inthemorning* biggo-sisto ; Alang lang lang, bangun cepat pergi mandi patu siap. Me ; It's still early in the morning and it's holiday == . biggo-sisto ; jom lahh teman akak g bla bla bla ~

See ? How cool and pemalas I am HAHAA , but I like it that way . I doesn't like to kecoh kecoh plan awal awal but jadi tak jadi taktau lagi~ and what if tak jadi ? Tak ke frust menonggeng ? Yang nak pergi mines ni pun my gang yang like planned everything a week before and I just confirm with them two days before the 'hang-out-date' . I told my mom pun two days before~ itupun mereka yang ingat kan kalau tak mmg 'twodaysbefore' turns to 'adaybefore' lah ~.~  And I like to went to a place where I can go just by a walk. No need lah car, motor or trains and so on~ Such as D'puncak*ash places* or mcd or the park in my neighborhood . I love to walk. Sambil sambil tu hirup udara segar kan kan kan. But of course lah tak suka when it such a sunny-hot-like-matahari-atas-kepala-je-kot-day =.= Agak agak la sikit T-T But sometimes aku bantai je redah tengah tengah panas when it's worth it macam nak jumpa important person kan. Lagilagipung, jalan nak ke mcd tu kan ada banyak shady trees. That's my favorite part. Walking under a shady trees. Nak cukup sedap lagi bila ada anginnnnnn wohoooo bahagianya hidup HAHA XD *hobisakaiaku*. Walking are such a healthy activity for you rite ? I'm glad it's one of my hobby (Y) 

Kay conclusion diyooo ; Akak, make sure next holiday awak kene ada kat rumah ! Kalau tak mmg tak berjalan lah Alanggg ;/ Tak winduuu ke kat Galang awak ni HOHOOO ;} Lagipun now your bilik like sunyi ~ so many things happen but takde tempat nak share story malam-malam. Tak dapat nak bergosip semua tuuu, nak lepas geram pun takde tempat *terpaksa pendam jela ._.* Nak harapkan Cocot, awak tahu kan betapa gedik nya dia sekarang ? *biasalahh budak nak naik remaja, angin lagu puting beliung sudah* Dah muktamad, awak wajibal-ghunnah ada kat rumah next holiday kayy ? Btw, wish you the best kat Utara sana tu (; Beware of charlie yaww (Y)

THERE YOU GO

Huh , It's the same-old-excuses -.- You did it again again and again ==' So many times I've told you , so many times I've remind you but still, you did it over over and over. You should have told me your plan, I'm not asking you to ask my permission or what , just tell me about it ! Is that a big problem ? Is that too hard for ya ? You know I hate it when I got knew about it from her and not from you. Don't give me such a surprise. You really don't have the idea what was she doing rite ? What ? You never check her twitter ? Even if you never did check it but I've told you bout it. And you was like 'hey she's just a kid' . Now, look what that 'kid' cause. She keeps mention that you are hers and you don't even get mad about it. To me , if you want to know lah , It seems like YOU L-I-K-E it. Like you don't even bother about it. And all this , makes me started to have doubt on you. Idk what were you guys chatting about cause you never told me bout it , and she make it looks like a-totally-sweet-conversation ! What, don't get surprise babe. Try to imagine lahh how I felt about it. My-boyfie-are-having-a-sweet-funny-chat-with-a-girl-who-has-a-crush-on-him. Doesn't that sounds extremely cruel to ya ? Yeah sometimes I do have a chat with other boys but it was in formal way and we're like using kau-aku. And my arif pun call me 'akak' kay. He respect me as her sister. He  already got a girlfie and I was close to his girl. We're like a real family. when a guy started to flirt with me or getting lain macam I'll said ; 'Hold on, I'm totally taken' . And if that guy still begar menggatai juga , I'll run from him and avoid him as best as I can. Why I didn't tell you about this earlier ? Because its all will drive us into a fight fight fight like there's no end of it. I'm tired. I'm bored. And I'm mad. When these feeling combine with my doubt-feeling which were increasing I guess, T-H-I-S-I-S-T-H-E-R-E-S-U-L-T. All this time when I don't have mood, this are the reason. And I didn't tell ya because I'm trying to have faith on ya. I've told myself ; It's nothing, what she said is all a lie. He would never do that to me. Until that day where you decide to settle it on your own and plan something behind my back. That day, I've lost patient-faith-sense-feeling-trust-and the worst, love. It all got place by three letter, M-A-D. Think about it, you've hurt I've hurt and so does she. Someone need to back off to make at least one heart feel happy. I know it's a love-war. Where I should've fight till the end. But in this war, I saw my enemy fell and you was like having sympathy on her. How could we win this war then ? And now, you're hurt I'm hurt but she is happy. Like you've said, she just a kid. And my parents always told me ; always yield when you're facing a kid. I guess I'm too big enough to argue with her rite ?

YOUTUBE WAVE

THIS IS SUCH A COOL SONG 

#ifyoureallyunderstandthemeaningofit

WHEN IT GOES TO THE BEAT

NOW MUSICS ARE MY SECOND LIFE

THEY COMFORT ME WHEN I'M IN MESS

THEY TELL YA WHAT I FEEL 

AND HOW MY LIFE GOES ON [;

PUSH THE BUTTON PLAY ; 

WHO YOU ARE - JESSIE J

SAY HELLO TO GOODBYE - SHONTELLE

THE STORY OF US - TAYLOR SWIFT

PART OF ME - KATY PERRY

WIDE AWAKE - KATY PERRY

Hahaa , there's a lot of song beating in my head right now but I just made a  short list (; and the shontelle songs seems familiar right ? HAHAAA It's my favor song since back then but now #PartOfMe #WideAwake becomes my favor now HOHOO I really love Katy Perry and her songs always be my favor kay such as ThinkingOfYou *Form1favor Firework *Form2favor TeenageDream *Form3favor . And there's a lot of cool songs by her like LastFridayNight and TheOneThatGotAway ~ She's fun. She's real fun. Ilikeherlikeseriously, and have you watch #PartOfMe mv ? Cool huh she signed up into the military team (Y) It's the best way for you to forget about mens ;} 


Heyya , free ? got nothing to do and wanna get fun ? ; google the lyrics ;D

SAVE ME FROM THAT WITCH II

Okay , izzaty wahid got her mood back ;D peace yawww , miss me ? HOHO okay actually I don't want to seem over excited in this post, cause it's not even a happy post ~,~ It's the post where it probably blow my strengh away. But somehow, I think I can do it ;}

NOW THIS IS WHERE THE SECRETS ARE REVEALED

as you guys know, I've end something where I shouldn't have end it. It's not something that I've planned or wish for. Well, who would have wish for something tragic ? ==' idk what was on my mind that night. And believe it or not, it was my "last-minute-decision" ! That night I'm such a mess, and I don't know what to do. I lock myself in the room with my phone and tried to decide who's to call. Actually I'm kinda deadlocked that time cause well I want to call Zaf but it was late night plus when its come to 'this-kind-of-thing' I ussually kept it and try to solve the problem alone. But then , I've decided to call Zaf. And it's kinda embarrassing as I was like 'tsk tsk T-T' , you know what I mean ~ I've told her everything and then my mouth was like 'cannot-be-shut' and keep talking bla bla bla bla and bla ~ Pity her , because my tone started to get higher and the sad feelings started to turns into mad mad and mad. And after that, I er I hermmm I laughed. Idk why-.- I felt like 'fuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhh' . My head felt so light. I looked myself in the mirror and keep smiling. And my heart said " Girl, there's only one thing that left to do "  .  Am I ready for it ? At that point I don't have the answer. But my heart and head seems like gang up and ignore my fear -.- I took out my phone, and typed typed typed then send . Then I looked back in the mirror. And I saw a smile. Idk where I got the strengh , somehow I think it's from Allah The Almighty (;

I've told my self ; Dont regret it girl, he deserve it. He get greedy and you got hurt. And now you're alone but he's there with his'back-up-plan' girl. He's not your true warrior. Cause true warrior will not hesistate to protect his girl. And would kill anyone who make his girls tears fall. So you're on a right path. The path where I'm still finding my true warrior. Another adventure begin ;}